Here without you

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, it's only you and me.


3 Doors Down

For Now

The Italian course has started again. I’m so eager to learn, but it’s very difficult and I don’t have much time at the moment. The homework is killing me! Wonder if I’ll ever be able to speak and understand the language totally…? Actually I wondered whether I should swift to English instead and get more confident with it and expand my vocabulary…?

The kids are really keeping all my senses awake! The oldest with her wonderful humor and thoughtful wonderings. She’s smart! A nice thing to state in this world!! The little one with his martial art! He has begun sparring competing, and my nerves are torn! His first tournament a couple of weeks ago and he got bronze! No damages or broken bones – what a relief! He was marvelous. He has so much control of his body and I really think this can get him far, if he wishes. Well, I said the same thing last year about his football. He controlled the ball and was a brilliant player. But Taekwondo won his attention. And that’s good, at least for now. He needs a sport, where the results only are depending on himself and his own efforts!

Christmas is near. I question our economic situation, but it’s the same every year – and we always have a proper Christmas after all! Anyway, the situation is a bit different right now. Maybe I’m unemployed from 1. January. And we have a big celebration in 6 months. Confirmation. Family, friends, dress(es), lots of food and thousands of others costs! A big day and I want to make it her day… It’s a kind of a cloud hanging over us right now where we don’t have all the money settled…

From Friday we have vacation for one week. That’ll be nice. To get away, walk by the sea with the kids and the dog. Getting my mind blown!!

The challenge

Fall. The weather has changed. Not that we have had any summer this year, but anyway. Rain, storm and cloudy… Leaves are changing colours. Beautiful. I love the burned colours. Yellow, orange and brown…

It’s dark most of the day now. The speed has slowed down – everywhere. The charm of the season.

I’m wondering what’s happening on the other side of the moon… I miss the words, the thoughts, the sign of life… It’s so dear to me… Is it even possible to connect only by exchanging thoughts?

I got to have faith. I tell myself all the time. Faith in the future. But I have to live in the moment too. It can be a challenge… But what dosen’t kill you, makes you stronger – right?