Happy New Year

A year has almost gone now. My first thought is – already? Then – of course! So many things have happened the last 12 months, so actually I wonder only a year has passed…

 – I met you… It’s impossible to say exactly what happened and in which sequence! One thing is for sure…well in fact more things are for sure… -Anyway, my world got a new dimension…

The months with you… and the following without you… sometimes like a roller coaster! But I really feel so grateful and lucky. Sometimes I don’t understand how my heart can store so much beauty… maybe our hearts grows relatively, the more sorrows and pain, the more beauty and love, the bigger heart…?Do you think there is someone above, making sure that there is a balance between good and evil on our path?

New Years Eve… with my dear friend and our families by the sea… And with you on my mind… bringing you a toast… Talking to the moon…being so grateful for everything you brought into my life…

 -And I do think that somebody above blessed me with your company… 

I have this weird feeling of rejecting something very precious… and I have - you… Combined  with the feeling of being in another life than meant for me, another life than suitable for me… The thought of deserving more…But as I said over and over, it takes time… And after all these years – a couple more years is worth it all…

I believe I’ll be blessed again… And when time is right, I’ll receive it with all my heart…

Let our movie play

I’m so sorry… I can tell by your silence that you are confused. And I understand. Guess I am a freak! It’s not about you, but about me… Please give me some time…I don’t expect you to understand it, but please accept it…

Close your eyes

Smile at me

Listen to your favorite music

Have your favorite drink

Let our movie play

A mysterious freak

So nice to hear from you. No, not nice! -Marvelous and wonderful. I really missed your words. I still do… And I long to see you… talk to you face to face… watch the light in your deep brown eyes…

So many things on my mind and I hate not to tell you everything… I hate sounding like a mysterious freak!

“Just when you think it can't get any worse, it can. And just when you think it can't get any better, it can.” ― Nicholas Sparks

“You cannot find peace by avoiding life.”
― Virginia Woolf

Life's hard. It's even harder when you're stupid.”
― John Wayne

The first snow

The first snow has fallen. Not slow, peacefully and romantic, but a very beautiful sight anyway! And the moment I enter my work, the traffic and chaos in the streets are forgotten! From my desk I have a stunning view through the large windows; big trees with  huge (now white) tops, a wonderful garden and an elder home. Very calming – both in summertime and now in winter.

Two out of five Christmas presents are bought. So far so good! The budget is already exceeded (same procedure as last year, and the year before, and the year before that…!) who mentioned anything about financial crisis? 

Still don’t know anything about Christmas eve, but New years eve is planed! We are going on a small vacation with some dear friends, in their holiday cottage near the sea. It’s going to be great. I really cherish our friendship - and the kids will have fun too.

Fortunately, we are also going to visit my siblings too. It’s been a long time since we last were together, and I really miss them. We are so alike and yet so different. We have our separately lives and families and nevertheless we are tightly connected.

Merry Christmas everyone

Hallelujah

A sick child, a hospitalization, high fever, stomach pain and for a mother a great deal of worries. We are home again, nothing critically, only a virus! The fever has fallen and the appetite is slightly returning. No sleep nor fresh air – if I thought I was tired before, I was wrong, ‘cause now I am!!

24 days until Christmas. Nothing settled yet. Where to celebrate Christmas eve, what to eat or what to buy for the family! Nothing.

But. In all the misery a light came though! My job is secured one more year! If I wasn’t so tired I would put my arms over my head and scream Hallelujah! What a Christmas gift. I feel so lucky. This is really a great job for me. Sometimes busy sometimes quiet. Sometimes challenging sometimes routine. –Like my temper!

Hallelujah.