Status

One more week, then it’s vacation for the kids and I. FOR ALMOST TWO WEEKS! It’s wonderful, and I need it. My head is full. No signs of a white Christmas this year, a bit sad, but we are going to have some fantastic days off anyway!

Watch TV, the usual classics and hopefully some premieres, have a lot of marvelous food, candy, tea and hot chocolate… That’s life J Maybe not even get dressed on some days and other days walking across the fields with the dog.

Grandma and her husband are joining us Christmas eve, and new year’s eve my dear friend and her family are coming. I really look forward to these two evenings, filled with so much love and devotion…

Well, I’ll have to get through the next 7 days of work, and frankly, I’ve tried worse! I have given birth to two children!! J

everything at its own time

Snow is covering the country – my kids love it. It’s freezing, but actually very beautiful.

A hectic time at work, my patience is running out, sorry to say it, cause I really do not like when moods and situations are influencing the way you act towards others. I prefer a professional line – and I’m usually very poker-face-like! Well, at least I’m aware about it, and working on it – and what – I’m only human…

Christmas around the corner, am I ready? Hell no! Do I have the overview of all the presents, food and gatherings the next 4 weeks? Hell no!

Sorry about my language – guess my patience is bothering me again…

Due to my back pain I’m consulting a physiotherapist, and I read somewhere, that when you start working with your body and getting a bit more loose it also influences your mind – of course I’ll say – I do believe the holistic point of view… Guess more things are happening in the back of my head, than I’m capable of suppressing…

Well, I take a deep breath and shake my head – everything at its own timeJ

Another song in my head :-)

She's just a girl and she's on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She's living in a world and it's on fire
Feeling with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away

Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got both feet on the ground
And she's burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got her head in the clouds
And she's not backing down

This girl is on fire...
This girl is on fire...
She's walking on fire...
This girl is on fire...

Alicia Keys – Girl on Fire

Yes yes :-)

She is so right - PINK. I love her songs... here is a verse from a new one:

Where there is desire
There is gonna be a flame

Where there is a flame
Someone's bound to get burned

But just because it burns
Doesn't mean you're gonna die

Pink - Try

Push all the right buttons

I’m fighting some major infiltrations in my back and neck at the moment – and when I say major, I mean really MAJOR! I cannot come up with any other word right now, but if you think bigger than major – then that’s the size of my problem J

Headache is one of consequences. The feeling of being handicapped is also an annoying consequence. My spine between my shoulder blades feels like a knot – and a big one! No doubt it gives a lot of pain, my right shoulder and arm and the right side of my head, all the way from the backside to my eyes! And probably connected to the pain in my pelvis…

Too much in front of the computer, too little workout and exercise – yes, I know! I have a very bad conscience!

But – I’ve met a magician. A man who can make magic with his hands. Nothing less. He knows where to push, he knows where to pull – and when! He is called a physiotherapist – I’ve met some of his kind before, but no one like him, at all!

Of course it’s not magic. I know perfectly well, I know he is a very skilled and professional person. But I am really so amazed that I consider him a magician. I am so happy to have met him – he has made a great difference to me. I am thankful for those coincidences… to run into people who has a lot to offer, and who knows how to push all the right buttons, both physical and mental.

Enjoy the daily wonders

Such a wonderful time ahead of us. Christmas, a lot of cozy time with family and friends, lovely food, gifts and all the traditions it brings along…

Even though I’m very sensitive at the moment, I am fighting to be present and focusing on my daily wonders – and I am capable of living J

Still have an exceptional male on my mind, and still have some weird dreams… and of course still a lot of confusing questions and mixed thoughts – but never the less – I’m enjoying the season and traditions, Christmas ahead, and as I said before, my daily wonders J

Be Strong

Monday again… it’s been a weekend with lots of mixed emotions and frustrations! Nevertheless I have a smile on my face – the sun is shining – and I have two wonderful kids J basically that’s all I need J

However I know more than ever where my life is heading. It’s scaring. Confusing. But in the end it’ll all turn out well, that’s my hope.

-But the “on and off” pain in my stomach, heart and soul is tuff to deal with. The uncertainty is hard to deal with…

It’s just been such a weekend… “on and off”

Guess deep inside I’m happy it’s Monday – and work is calling…

"Potato-vacation"

The weather is warm and gentle at the moment. A bit rain now and then, but not much and the temperatures are higher than usual autumn. Schools all over the country are closed right now, a week of vacation. Even though I don't have the whole week off, it's so nice and a relaxed atmosphere at home, when the kids have no obligations! No homework and no getting early up in the morning...

It's an old tradition, this week off. Many years ago everyone had to collect potatoes from the fields, inclusive schoolchildren! It had to be done before the ground got frozen - it was a common task!

...I wonder if the kids are aware of how easy their lives are now compared to previous... Now I sound like an old grandma!! "when I was young..." -Well I'm only 37, and no, I haven't collected potatoes either... I have been sleeping untill noon watched telly and only if my father forced me I went for a walk with him :-) I was no different than my kids...

It's so good with a week off - everyone should have the possibility.

Have a nice vacation to you who have...

Good morning :-)

Luciano Pavarotti

Buongiorno a questo giorno che si sveglia oggi con te,

buongiorno al latte ed al caffé, buongiorno a chi non c’è

e al mio amore buongiorno per dirle che è lei

che per prima al mattino veder io vorrei,

è un giorno nuovo e spero che sia buono anche per te.

Listen to the song

So soft...

I just love this song...

Leonard Cohen

"Hallelujah"

I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this
The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty in the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Baby I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you.
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there’s a God above
But all I’ve ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
It’s not a cry you can hear at night
It’s not somebody who has seen the light
It’s a cold and it’s a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

You say I took the name in vain
I don't even know the name
But if I did, well, really, what's it to you?
There's a blaze of light in every word
It doesn't matter which you heard
The holy or the broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth, I didn't come to fool you
And even though it all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

Listen to the music

Summer vacation :-)

Monday 1 October
Grey, cloudy, wet and boring…
Time for candle lights, lighting the stove and perhaps some hot chocolate – maybe low cab??
I have to dig deep to find my motivation for almost everything!
The only thing I want to do, is to dream about vacation… searching for different possibilities… off course in Italy again… but how to get there, how to live there and for how long… some huge questions – which my mind cannot help being occupied with… And my fingers cannot help searching the internet…  And my eyes are encouraged by all the wonderful pictures on my screen… awakening memories from previous vacations…
Sono cose della vita...

You made your mark

My Pocket Philosophy

Still thinking of you

In everything I’m going through

Every day you are on my mind

Totally peace I cannot find

A little word or a tiny thing

My thoughts are spinning around in ring

You made your mark

Now I just cannot park

The feeling you granted

Somehow I feel stranded

Torn between then and now

Tell me where to find me – somehow

3 Doors down

“Here without you”

A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that separate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight it's only you and me

The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it won’t take away my love

I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me

Have a lovely weekend everybody :-)

This is the song spinning around right now...

AURA DIONE:

"In Love With The World"

You’re in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
And all I wanna do is spend a little time with you
You spend all your time waiting
Told you right from the start that I’m no 9 to 5
Not planning to stay, wish I could see you every day but
I’m chasing a dream for a living.

I’m not what you wanted, you’re not what I needed
This love is a burden, my heart can't repeat it
I’ve been here before, gotta let you go
I believed in you and me, I hoped to be every thing you ever wanted
You’re asking for more, you’re too insecure

You’re in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
And all I wanna do is spend a little time with you
You spend all your time waiting
Told you right from the start that I’m no 9 to 5
Not planning to stay, wish I could see you every day but
I’m chasing a dream for a living.

You know it’s a fact that my suitcase is packed
Then I beg you to say it’s okay
I can go to the end of the world and still be your girl
Call me on the phone, say you hate to be alone
It’s my fault that you almost cheated
Been here before, you’re too insecure

You’re in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
And all I wanna do is spend a little time with you
You spend all your time waiting
Told you right from the start that I’m no 9 to 5
Not planning to stay, wish I could see you every day but
I’m chasing a dream for a living.

Oh oh oh the world is calling
Oh oh oh the world is calling
All the world is big enough for me

You’re in love with a girl who’s in love with the world
And all I wanna do is spend a little time with you
You spend all your time waiting
Told you right from the start that I’m no 9 to 5
Not planning to stay, wish I could see you every day but
I’m chasing a dream for a living.

Disappear in muscles

I had a dream last night. A very wonderful dream! I was with a man in an intimate and warm way. We touched, but I don’t think we made love… I don’t quite remember actually… But I remember the sight of his beautiful naked body, and I remember the wonderful feeling when we touched. I remember the fantastic feeling being so close to him – feeling his caresses.  He is very very muscular – and in a perfect way. Not like you see on TV, pumped and everything! He is so natural. Muscles because of his work.

I know the man. I see him several times a week, and we often speak. He is just as calm and appealing for real, as in my dream. I would lie if I said that I haven’t had him on my mind before - awake! He is a mason - a real workman. And I tell you, his shirts fits him perfectly!

Weird dream though… To be so close to him – almost to disappear in his arms – and the wonderful feeling awakening in me, indescribable! I can almost recall it now only by thinking about the dream… I wish I can jump into the dream again tonight and continue…

Can’t help wondering… will I blush next time I see him?? J I’ll smile that’s for sure – cause I have a secret – about us…

On the other hand, dreams are often mysterious so maybe it was about another thing…?

What do you think...?

Smile :-)

Someday.......

I received your mail, it was so nice to hear from you. I really love your words… and I understand the distance between us underneath your words… Of course my situation is much different from yours… Our worlds are very different from each other… makes me often wonder how come I’m so drawn to you… also makes me wonder, weather I am drawn or only fascinated and interested in your way of living… what’s the difference between being drawn to and fascinated by…? Maybe it’s slightly the same…?

Anyway, I won’t know now… maybe never – hopefully someday. Sure, someday…! Someday I will be independent and free, in such an extent that I’m able to understand and read my truly and inner feelings, knowing what’s right and wrong, what I want and importantly do not want… without wondering what other persons want me to want…

I’ll get there. Until then, I will enjoy your words – imagine your life, culture, home and everyday life… Maybe I’ll be able to visit you someday…

Nevertheless I cherish that I’ve met you, cherish your words – and the wonderful time that’s been passing, will not return badly – right?! And if faith will grant us more time together – it will be awesome…

Wondering

My brain is wondering

Body slumbering

Every day and every night

All the thoughts are very tight

Dreams so out of the ordinary

Dark or light equal extraordinary

Seems no help to find

Must look behind

The truth is not kind

And under the skin

Deep within

The impatience is running

And somehow will be coming

The powerful compel

Enough for me to tell

That finally harmony

Will be here to be

I'm not too busy :-)

A week has gone now – just like blinking an eye J

Would only wish you a lovely weekend

Don’t ever be too busy to do that :-)

Fantastic Friday

The sun is rising on a sky without any clouds. Just a tiny wind is playing with the leaves – the only sign that my view isn’t a postcard!

People are still having vacation, the office is quiet, and so is the city. The trip to work was marvelous. Only a few cars, a couple of runners, me and some happy birds…

A deep breath and the air was like a vitamin bomb in my body and soul. I just love the trip to work. Nearly 3 miles on my bike, starting with a lovely view over the fields and a rich selection of birds, ending in our little old town with so much cozy atmosphere…

It is a fantastic Friday that’s for sure J

Have a lovely weekend everybody J

Dive into a couple of evergreens

The radio is always on in our office. I’m often the first in the morning and I turn it on right away! I said it before, music is a very important part of my life – I love it J The songs are appealing to me in a funny way, I mean, they produces so many feelings and thoughts and recalls so many memories, both good and bad – fortunately mainly good J
Two characters have made a big impression, and played an important role in my youth. Madonna and Phil Collins. Just heard the two songs below in the radio, marvelous songs! -From the 80’ies. 

Wham!

Makes me think about lots of other hits from that period.

“White snake – here I go again” “U2 – With or without you” “Cyndi Lauper – Girls just wanna have fun” “Wham – I’m your man” “The police – every breath you take”  “Eurythmics – miracle of love” “Culture club – Do you really want to hurt me” “Berlin – take my breath away” “Foreigner – I want to know what love is” “Joan Jett – I love rock n’roll” “Queen – I want to break free”

I could continue for hours!

Wonder what happened to the sweet guy I went to school with in the 80’ies? The quiet boy, always smiling always ready with a funny comment? I really liked him, in another way than the others, I kind of respected him and cherished the time with him, the one and only male-friend I had without fantasizing about him as a boyfriend… I was busy having fun and running around with crazy hormones in my head, being a jerk sometimes, like many other teenagers, but not this guy, he was the same all the time, easy and unproblematic! He was wise, guess he has a good job now, bet he is highly educated. I actually named my son after him – of course no one knows J

And how about my dearest friend – my one and only soul mate at that time? (And ever, now I think about it!) We were yin and yang for almost 10 years - inseparable! We went to sport together, slept together, went to school together, made homework together – everything! I loved her and her family very much… Her mother was the sweetest, and she had so much to give, even to me, in fact a stranger! Don’t know what happened, I moved and the crazy hormones continued (!), so bit by bit our contact faded out. Still think of her once in a while, even tried to name my daughter after her, but didn’t succeed! ...Wonder what became of her…?

Madonna


Well, let's dive into a couple of evergreens J

True blue - Madonna:

I've had other guys
I've looked into their eyes
But I never knew love before
'Til you walked through my door
I've had other lips
I've sailed a thousand ships
But no matter where I go
You're the one for me baby this I know, 'cause it's

True love
You're the one I'm dreaming of
Your heart fits me like a glove
And I'm gonna be true blue baby I love you

I've heard all the lines
I've cried oh so many times
Those tear drops they won't fall again
I'm so excited 'cause you're my best friend
So if you should ever doubt
Wonder what love is all about
Just think back and remember dear
Those words whispered in your ear, I said

No more sadness, I kiss it good-bye
The sun is bursting right out of the sky
I searched the whole world for someone like you
Don't you know, don't you know that it's

True love, oh baby, true love, oh baby
True love, oh baby, true love it's

True, so if you should ever doubt
Wonder what love is all about
Just think back and remember dear
Those words whispered in your ear, I said

You can't hurry love - Phil Collins:

I need love, love
Ooh, ease my mind
And I need to find time
Someone to call mine;

My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
But it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes

How many heartaches must I stand
Before I find the love to let me live again
Right now the only thing that keeps me hanging on
When I feel my strength, ooh, it's almost gone

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
It's a game of give and take
How long must I wait
How muck more must I take
Before loneliness
Will cause my heart, heart to break?

No, I can't bear to live my life alone
I grow impatient for a love to call my own
But when I feel that I, I can't go on
Well these precious words keep me hanging on

I remember mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy
Well, it's a game of give and take
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
Just trust in a good time
No matter how long it takes, now break!

Now love, love don't come easy
But I keep on waiting
Anticipating for that soft voice
To talk to me at night
For some tender arms
Hold me tight
I keep waiting
Ooh, till that day
But it ain't easy (Love don't come easy)
No, you know it ain't easy

My mama said
You can't hurry love
No, you'll just have to wait
She said love don't come easy

Yawn :-)

Dreams

Are not what you see in sleep

They are the things which won’t let you sleep

I'm Back!

I’m back! (Do I sound like Schwarzenigger from “Terminator”?!)
-Well I am – back behind my desk. My summer holiday is over, 3 weeks - gone with the wind. (Do I sound like… -okay I’ll stop now!) It’s been a fine vacation. Both in wonderful southern Europe, and at home…

I just thought about the first time I blogged, a year ago now, the same situation as now, just returned from vacation. Funny, nothing has really changed… Well, it’s not quite true that nothing has changed… I feel more confident and have more faith in the future… But on the surface everything is a usual!

I started blogging because I missed the one who was on my mind 24/7. I had so many feelings and thoughts and my head was overcrowded! I had a huge need for writing…

I still do (miss him) but now I also love to let my thoughts fly and just write it all down! I have always loved to write, but haven’t had the possibility in many years. Now I have due to my work, and I cherish it very much! I love to surf around and read about many other lives around the world… It’s a kind of escape from my everyday life, to write and read… Maybe also a sort of therapy. Never the less I am much wiser about many things – myself, my life, my feelings and needs. The doubt is always by my side, that’s for sure, but I feel the strength to control it! –And I see it disappear in the horizon!

Well, enough of that! I started Monday after 3 weeks of vacation. Tough that’s for sure! But I was also quite excited to open my mailbox – convinced that I would find at least one mail from at least one special person who remembered my birthday! It didn’t turn out that way…Can you imagine my disappointment? Not only had my colleagues forgotten all about it (still have) that’s one thing! But no mails at all, not just a single short one… It hurts! I really expected that he remembered… Now I’m trying to do some damage control! Telling myself that it’s for the best. It’s for the best he doesn’t write that often anymore. It’s for the best he doesn’t give me false hopes. Actually I’m the one who is slowing it all down! I’m the one who is bounded both literally and mentally… I know… But a mail… A tiny thought… This is hard to swallow… And I hate when I get so fragile – dammit get over it! Get a hold of yourself! Don’t claim anything of others as long as you don’t even know what to claim of yourself…

So – now you got my vomit!! Sorry! Had to get it out! Let’s change the subject…

Summer vacation is over, and half the year has gone. Within the next months its decided whether I get to stay here or not. My vacancy lasts the year out but I expect to get some clarity soon. A part of me (a big part of me) wishes to stay. This is steady which appeals to my need for security. It’s also partly busy and partly calm which also suits me very fine! –But a tiny part of me, the adventurer, is longing for something new… New tasks, new challenges… But well aware that I’ll never get the freedom I have here, it’s wiser to stay… -If it’s possible!

The center of my summer-dreams

One week in the southern Europe, in the center of my summer-dreams! My rehab, and my totally relaxation. That’s my reality in four days! It’ll be great – even though for only one week – guess that’s better than nothing J

I’m back behind the computer in the beginning of week 30, but I refuse to think of that now! Refuse to face, that the year is half-gone, and the next season is fall!

On the other hand, we’ll be closer to winter, Christmas and spring again – in my mind closer to the new year, which has a very special meaning in my subconsciousness…

Il tempo viene per chi sa aspettare / All things come to those who wait.

Have a lovely summer everybody

Countdown

The countdown has truly begun now – 10 days left, then 3 weeks of vacation. Maybe you are wondering, have they finally found out where to go or what to do? –No, is the answer! None of it!

But next week, Thursday, it’s decided. Then we have our budget ready, the wishes in priority order, and the weather forecast more precise!

Just another song, spinning around right now

I've been alone with you
Inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips
A thousand times
I sometimes see you
Pass outside my door
Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted
And my arms are open wide
'cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much
I love you

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again
How much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello!
I've just got to let you know
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you

Hello!
Is it me you're looking for?
'cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely?
Or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying I love you
Hear the music

Lionel Richie - Hello

I love this song - are you getting in the mood? :-)

Hear the song :-)
First, when there's nothing but a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide deep inside your mind
All alone I have cried silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel, made of stone

Well I hear the music, close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around, take a hold of my heart

What a feeling, bein's believin'
I can't have it all, now I'm dancin' for my life
Take your passion, and make it happen
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life

Now I hear the music, close my eyes, I am rhythm
In a flash it takes hold of my heart

What a feeling

What a feeling (I am music now), bein's believin' (I am rhythm now)
Pictures come alive, you can dance right through your life
What a feeling (I can really have it all)
What a feeling (Pictures come alive when I call)
I can have it all (I can really have it all)
Have it all (Pictures come alive when I call)
(call, call, call, call, what a feeling) I can have it all
(Bein's believin') bein's believin'
(Take your passion, make it happen) make it happen
(What a feeling) what a feeling...
What a feeling, Flashdance

Recommendations?

Does any of you faithful readers know the south of Italy? I need some recommendations if I want to sleep somewhere cheap, and yet central. Will I have to book before arriving, or is it always possible to get a room in the beginning of July?

Post a comment or write me an email :-)

Tattoo

I want a tattoo. I have one already and want one more! The big question is now – what and where? I’ve been thinking the last year (in fact longer) and I have decided to get a quote or saying, on my foot, my arm, from my neck to my shoulder or on the back of my neck. The last option will be so nice when I have my hair up, but the disadvantage is that I cannot see it myself! Guess that’s out of the question then…

The main problem is which quote or saying to choose! I want one dear to me. – Many are (!), so let’s say very dear. It mustn’t be too long – I want people to able to read it quickly. It could also be a phrase, maybe from a song, I love music.
 J

The verse Talking to the moon, by Bruno Mars, has a very special meaning to me. It brings me many wonderful thoughts and feelings – and I am truly a dreamer and I am often talking to the moon

Of course I have to think some more about it! I have to have it in my head over and over again, before making my mind up! That’s me, you know J

Friday hugs

It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose
it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been
missing until it arrives.

My annual rehab

That’s it. We are back at 50 degrees! Back in my shoes and sweaters – no free toes and arms J But it’s okay. I still remember the sun and warm wind – it’s still fresh in my mind. Yet I don’t hope that’s all for this year!! We haven’t had enough – not at all! The thought is scaring me, a long summer vacation without any sun! We still don’t know whether we are going south or not. I’m counting every penny and my mind is spinning all the time – where can we save some money? Can you imagine me holding my breath? My face is about to turn blue!! Within two weeks we know for sure how to spend our vacation - which is in four weeks.

No doubt what I want! Sure it could be nice to go somewhere new – explore our own country and visit our own wonders J

BUT – many years in Italy have left their marks deep in my soul… First of all the climate which is radically different. The average temperature in July is 85 in Italy – here it’s only 68! To be able to enjoy your breakfast outside – and late dinner too – without having your hair blown around and big clouds threatening to wash away our food. To jump in the water without catching the cold. To go for a walk without having your wellies with you – just in case!! The climate is just so gentle – to put it in a single word.

Not to forget the atmosphere and culture – so far from ours and so far from my everyday life! I really love it, but actually I’m not sure I could handle it in general! It’s so nice to be relaxed and calmed about everything – for a period! ( and especially vacation) I think I prefer a more scheduled day, where people complies appointments and are more strictly about arrangements…

I just love the country.J

And I really relax being there. My annual rehabilitation. Mentally and physically. Besides I have to practice the language too! Hopefully we have a course again in September, and I’m far behind the others

Sono cose della vita

Isn't it wonderful

Summer has reach our country! Can’t explain how much it infects me – my soul is blooming!

This time last week the temperature said under 50 degrees Fahrenheit – the last 4 days we have had 90!

It’s amazing!

I love the trees, the grass and the flowers – not to forget the birds…

When I ride my bike every day to and from work I suck all the wonderful impressions!

In the morning – everything is quiet, the birds are twittering

The long path without cars – only me

And the yellow fields on my right

And green fields on my left

A warm tender breeze in my face

The sun rising in the horizon

The wide blue sky above

In the afternoons people everywhere

On bikes, walking, skating, running

With smiles on their faces – as happy about the weather as me

Life buzzing everywhere

I wish I could take half of my stomach-feeling

And save it for worse times!

‘Cause I can hardly contain all the happy feelings - all the joy

I have to change the design on my blog! Just to take a little bit of it

With me to the computer

And share it with you

Isn’t it wonderful

That's wise - but difficult !!

I will spare you for all my analyzing! Trying to figure out my life! – and also spare myself for all the thoughts I make before (and during)   writing them!!

You get a quote instead, a wise one – but difficult nevertheless!!

Think this will be my mantra...

Give me a hint !! :-)

Almost weekend now – marvelous! …A couple of days away from the computer, that’s needed! I have been searching – surfing – on the internet quite a lot the previous 4 days, primary to read and learn about supernatural things. Still confused about it… Nevertheless I have been reading tarot cards every day – more times a day actually!! Can’t say I have become wiser! And I know I have to seek the answers inside myself… -But I would like to get a hint… which I think I do – or…?

Do you sense my uncertainty?? J

Have a lovely weekend everybody.