Do you know the feeling?

Do you know the feeling of missing someone really bad? Like really really bad? The way your thoughts are circling every single time it’s possible. The way you constantly open your mailbox to look for a letter, or to write a letter – only to dele it again… The way your stomach is turning when you think of the person. The way you fold your hands at night, saying a prayer for the person. The way your eyes are shining and lips are smiling only by the thought of the one.

And yet you don’t even know whether it truly is the one at all! You don’t even know the person, all though you feel like you do! Is that possible? You don’t have anything tangible – but the feeling… And what a feeling… Sometimes really happiness and excitement, sometimes sadness and loss. Happiness because of the inner joy you have been blessed with getting to know such a wonderful person. Sadness because you haven’t had enough.

Now, looking out of the window, watching the sun shining from a clear sky, with my eyes following the birds from tree to tree, my thoughts are circling again. I’m glad. Thankful. Full of gratefulness in my stomach! Despite of missing really really bad J