I’m back again after some days off. Winter-vacation for the kids, school has been closed, and everything from the daily humdrum has been on stand-by! Not that we had a lot of super exciting things on schedule but the feeling of meeting the day with whatever it’ll bring along (or don’t bring along!) is awesome! A whole day in your dressing gown or maybe a looooong walk with the dog – you don’t know before the day has passed… -I love that…
But…
Some days off, being with the family all day long, brings up the problems too. We are tearing each other apart. I’m searching answers everywhere. My prayers at night are for signs. And yet I know them perfectly well. But it hurts. And the doubt is killing me. What if I read all the signals wrong? And which consequences will my decisions have? I hate when I don’t know the outcome. I am terrified by the unknown concerning my family. You know what you have, not what you’ll get! –Hate that saying too!!!
Wouldn’t it be nice if you could look up all the tuff answers in a big book of life??!!
-No... I know…
Guess the only right encyclopedia is your soul. And you have to cross a lot of memories and experiences to read it.
No one told us life would be untroubled… -But Jesus, how I truly love it, nevertheless J
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