Wednesday, 28 March 2012

Future

The sky so blue
A devotion so true

A life in two
The question is who

A bird above
Witnesses the love

The spirit inside
Is sad to hide

                                               The life in middle
                                               A frustrated riddle

                                               A future to come
                                                Knows it’s the one

Monday, 26 March 2012

Feng Shui

A new week – and a lovely weekend behind me J The weather was beautiful, really stunning! Most of my tasks were indoor though! Nevertheless, all the sunshine and birds singing gave me lots of energy.

It’s so satisfying when you conquer old annoying household tasks! Like sorting a closet of various papers and letters – or pulling the bed out and clean behind and under it! Old half broken Christmas ornaments, clothes that doesn’t fit (and haven’t done for quite a while, which was the reason it got under the bed in first case!)

It was lovely getting into bed last night, knowing the air around me was without months old dust!! J And everything around me were still there because I decided so!

-Now I’m thinking of it, I’m in the middle of a feng shui project! J

Well, it was truly needed and now I can relax the whole Easter, with a good conscience… -After the next four days of work J

Thursday, 22 March 2012

Something's missing on the list : )

Do you know Mozart?

It’s a little bit funny J the last days with you on my mind (more than else) and how I’m consistently reminded of you… Sometimes I do get the feeling, that I’m meant to be reminded of you J


I don’t know Mozart! I’ve heard his name, and know he was a famous composer, but that’s about it. Accidently I was presented this act.
Don Giovanni, this unscrupulous womanizer with only one purpose in his life – to conquer women! And his “night and day!” servant keeps all the women listed!

I think you shall have the text – in both languages! You can search on youtube if you want. I’m sure you see the connection – why I was reminded of you J – once again…

(By the way, I know you know Mozart, and I know you know the act! J)

My dear lady, this is a list
Of the beauties my master has loved,
A list which I have compiled.
Observe, read along with me.



In Italy, six hundred and forty;
In Germany, two hundred and thirty-one;
A hundred in France; in Turkey, ninety-one;
In Spain already one thousand and three.


Among these are peasant girls,
Maidservants, city girls,
Countesses, baronesses,
Marchionesses, princesses,
Women of every rank,
Every shape, every age.


With blondes it is his habit
To praise their kindness;
In brunettes, their faithfulness;
In the very blond, their sweetness.
In winter he likes fat ones.
In summer he likes thin ones.


He calls the tall ones majestic.
The little ones are always charming.
He seduces the old ones
For the pleasure of adding to the list.


His greatest favourite
Is the young beginner.
It doesn't matter if she's rich,
Ugly or beautiful;
If she wears a petticoat,
You know what he does.



Madamina, il catalogo è questo
Delle belle che amò il padron mio;
un catalogo egli è che ho fatt'io;
Osservate, leggete con me.


In Italia seicento e quaranta;
In Almagna duecento e trentuna;
Cento in Francia, in Turchia novantuna;
Ma in Ispagna son già mille e tre.


V'han fra queste contadine,
Cameriere, cittadine,
V'han contesse, baronesse,
Marchesine, principesse.


E v'han donne d'ogni grado,
D'ogni forma, d'ogni età.
Nella bionda egli ha l'usanza
Di lodar la gentilezza,
Nella bruna la costanza,
Nella bianca la dolcezza.


Vuol d'inverno la grassotta,
Vuol d'estate la magrotta;
È la grande maestosa,
La piccina e ognor vezzosa.


Delle vecchie fa conquista
Pel piacer di porle in lista;
Sua passion predominante
È la giovin principiante.


Non si picca - se sia ricca,
Se sia brutta, se sia bella;
Purché porti la gonnella,
Voi sapete quel che fa.

Tuesday, 20 March 2012

Taste a little bit of it again


God damnit, I did it again! So much for my self-control!! – or lack of, cause I haven’t got any!! (Not when it comes to you that is) Promised myself not to write to you before you have written to me. Promised myself to be patient and to give you time and space…! But… -Can I at least explain..?

I really got so caught up in memories yesterday. Read all the poems and verses you made for me and all your e-mails through the last year… They are so beautiful and wonderful. And… I’m not over with you… I haven’t had enough… I wanted to taste a little bit of it again… Wanted to open my mailbox – feel the excitement as my eyes run down the list of unread messages… Being all thrilled to open a document, looking at all the words – sentences, pages - maybe even a picture – likely a new poem you’ve wrote or a quote or saying you’ve found – just for me… I just wanted to feel it all again…my heart so high that I’m afraid it’ll pump out of my mouth, my pulse so quick that my cheeks blush and shines deep red like a sharp contrast to my blond hair and white teeth – looking unnoticed around at my colleagues – assuring myself that they don’t notice…cause no one would be doubting what I’m reading, what I’m experiencing, no one who has ever been in love, who has ever felt so curious about another person, who has ever felt compassion for another person…

I just wanted a bit of it back… So I wrote to you. Letting you know I’m still alive… Hopefully awakening a need in you to write to me… Just a “medium-short” e-mail, with what’s going on at the moment – and of course that I miss your words ( just to erase all potential doubt) but not a long miserable letter telling you how much I suffer from time to time… I don’t want you to think that I’m a crying sissy!!!

From the moment that I pressed the send button yesterday till I opened my mailbox this morning, thousands of thoughts flew through my mind and thousands of feelings entered my soul. What a journey! And as I tried to fall asleep I imagined how a weekend with you would be. Just the two of us, talking, laughing, enjoying each other’s company, going long walks in the beautiful nature, cooking wonderful meals… It could be so nice… I practically jumped on the bike this morning, riding the best I could, and opened my computer quicker than lightning, anxious to see what was in my mailbox… -Nothing. Of course, nothing… I knew it…

So now I promise myself, once again, that I will not write… I will give you time… and space… And I will not drag myself through the rollercoaster of feelings, disappointments, hops and wishes… Cause I know… I know very well, that it’s all up to me… I’m the one with the decision… -Or have been… Because maybe my chances are decreasing day by day… I’m just not ready – yet…

I just wanted to taste a little bit of it again…

Monday, 19 March 2012

Al Principe dei miei sogni

Time flies at the moment! The last days are like gone with the wind! Therefore I treasure the time I have here by my computer, all by myself, letting the thoughts run. –Only disturbed by my job once and a while… J I’m so lucky to have a job with so much freedom, a couple of deadlines two times a month, and how to manage the work in between is up to me! I know I said it before, let me state it again – I love my job.

I miss your letters! –That’s also said before! What are you doing – where is life bringing you? Are you working, studying or travelling? What happened last year, why didn’t they want you back as planed? I still have so many questions… -Still having so many mixed emotions… Anyway, I read an Irish saying on Janice's Blog and guess what, it was one of them you send me J It brought back so many happy memories, and my thoughts started to fly – again. You know sono una sognatice – even though you always called me principessa J I’d like to think I am…You feed my dreams, thoughts, feelings – life… and it really feels empty without you – without your words… But in a particular way… Cause my life is full of joy, love and happiness… What was it you brought…? What is it you still bring…? Compassion - passion…? Is that the right words? It sure brings me a lot of meaning –  wonderful adjectives, if they wasn’t already invented, your species would have done it J

I’m still not sure how to categorize my thoughts and feelings about you. Were you send from above to wake me up? To remind me of true inner beauty? To remind me of the way of thinking deep thoughts – like my father did, like I always saw him? To remind me of a life with much more within? Were you send to remind me of my own beliefs and values? Have I been compromising too much?

I cannot help thinking of the saying:


Which is the case to me! And I’m being reminded of you all the time – everywhere – The music on the radio, which has become our music (!) all sorts of little things, movies, clothes, food… and today the saying on Janice’s blog!





Well, that's me sweetie, sotto il faggio

Today’s dreaming – today’s looking out of the window – looking south – towards the muse of my muse J


Sweet Memories



Drops of waterfall I see
and colored balls bouncing
and children smiling at the feast of life.
Words stored in my veins I see
swept away by streams of memories
and children smiling at the feast of life.
And huge and blue the eyes I see
and cold and hungry hands getting warm
on the flames of my chest heated by wine.
A child is smiling at the feast of my life.





Monday, 12 March 2012

Have a great week!

I have completed two very annoying tasks from my to do list this weekend! What a wonderful feeling inside! Even today, on a Monday J I don’t know where all the energy comes from – spring? – but it was a satisfied feeling when I hit the pillow last night…

It’s still very long. –My to do list! Maybe never ending??!! When you have a house, a garden, 3 rabbits, 2 children, a dog, a husband and not to forget an Italian course…

That’s life, isn’t it…

Monday, 5 March 2012

Knowing

I know my feelings
I hear my thoughts
I’m wondering around in moods
all in my head like storage rooms

The pleasure in my life
The joy in me
mixed frustrations and aggravations
doubting placements

Nothing is for sure
Though everything for real

The sun is shining
my smile increase
the confidence
the knowing
can’t help showing
the love inside
is here to be

To follow the life of ME

Friday, 2 March 2012

Buon fine settimana


Don’t know about you – I really look forward to weekend! Have a lot of things on my to do list, and I know perfectly well, that I’ll only get half of it done! Anyway, it’s better than nothing, right??!! –Furthermore, the whole family needs to have a couple of quiet mornings, thing have been a little too hectic the last week.

I’ll start my weekend going on a café with my daughter J Just the two of us, talking, laughing, eating and relaxing with no concern of time J

See you J