Do you know
the feeling – wondering around in your own world, thinking, dreaming and not
being able to do anything useful?! I’m in such a bubble right now (again! I am
familiar with it!)
Work is
increasing and the more busy the more ineffectual I get!!
I dream
about Italy. Everything about wonderful Italy. The culture, the food, the sun
and warm weather. The particular smell of the dry earth combined with the heat
waves… The olive trees… The calm atmosphere – sometimes broken by a tempered
native!!
I wonder –
could I get a life there? I’m a very tied to my family, even though I only see it
once in a while… The confidence that they are only a couple of hours away… My
mother and siblings… I couldn’t do without my kids that’s for sure! –They could
come with me…?
I dream
about an apartment. My own place. Maybe a house – that’s not important though. It’s
not important where either! Not necessary Italy! Could be right here around… I
dream about my own life. No one to push me around… No one to tell me what to do…
It starts
here by myself, I know… I’m the one to take the first step… And I know it’s going
to happen. It’s already started – right here in my mind. Actually it’s been
here for some years – more or less. Had some things to finish first. Now it’s
done. Now it’s time to get ready.
That’s my dream.
My wondering. My bubble.
I want it
out of the bubble and into my life – I want the bubble to burst. I’m getting
ready… I want to live it all…
