54 hours of sun in November, average!
I feel like half of the day is missing in my life! I don’t have enough time, at work, at home, with the kids or with myself – alone! Not that I generally need to be alone, but you know, just to read a book, study Italian, watch a movie or listen to music. Without thinking of anything else! No commitments at all!
And my energy level is annoyingly low! I can sleep 12 hours and still be tired, lazy and drained! Luckily, the kids are keeping me aware! They have so much in their lives and we all need that I’m a big part of it, so it forces me to be paying attention and follow their speed!
Time is really passing by so fast and I both hate and love it! Hate it, because the feeling of always being behind is killing me! I constantly aim to be in control… On the other hand I love the thought of getting older and the kids too. I really enjoy the different periods of their ages, but never the less, things will change when they get older. I will be able to do things in my life, which I really long for…
3 hours a week I still hold sacred! The Italian course. We are only 7 students, and it’s so amusing, relaxing, inspiring, learning and challenging. At the moment it’s the only thing I do for myself and for my own benefit. I need it. It makes me feel like an individual. Not a mother, a wife, an employee or a housekeeper! And our teacher is marvelous: Warm and tender, smiling, funny and very skilled. I love to hear and learn about Italy! Such a wonderful country, landscape, culture and population. When she shows photos from her home region and tells us about their customary I get a strong need of exploring!! Many years of vacation in the north of Italy have given me a bit of the adventure, but not nearly enough!
I know what’s waiting in the horizon…
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